i hate more than anything when people make me feel guilty for not doing what makes them happy. because i always will feel guilty and won't be able to enjoy anything i do. but i know you don't mean to do what you do.

its times like this that for some reason i missYou.

Not that you ever comforted me in any way when i felt like this. but i could see you happy and maybe you would give me a glance of those eyes or a touch of your hand and i would feel better just to believe you did care.

so i'll listen to these songs that remind me of you. because for today i'm staying home.

i would rather be home in shango. with everyone else hanging around in their loungy pants which is what everyone should be wearing. and we could stand around the island and eat a late late breakfast/lunch. and watch cartoons and play silly games. and take showers so we could go have good times late into the morning. those are the days i love.

i miss you guys. shango and shasta boys