i didn't ask her to explain because i was exhausted of talking about things and just wanted to go at the moment, but i should have, because now i feel like i have a homework assignment that i have no idea how to accomplish.

so i've kinda been taking notes, when i start thinking of things that i feel are relevant to what we talked about, but i keep having the urge to take what i've written each day and edit out the stuff i think sounds cliche and rewrite it so it sounds better. but then i think that maybe that defeats the purpose of writing down your thoughts throughout the day.

i should probably just stop analyzing this and let her do that. this is supposed to make me feel better not more stressed.

in other news, i've had a great desire to create art lately and have been suppressing it because of my lack of materials. which is kind of silly, because art can be created from anything. i think i'm doing this because i have things to do that need to get done, so i feel i should do them before something i want to do for fun. so most days i just don't do much. its a bad pattern.

tomorrow i have things to do that must be done, like cleaning and picking up my older sister at the airport at 1 am wednesday morning. so maybe i'll feel more accomplished after that.

this weekend i'm going to Fort Bragg with my family and maybe some other people, and i'm kinda excited to be going to the coast and even to be going fishing. we'll see how it goes though.

now i'm going to sleep. so i can get up nice and early. while its still nice and cool.