rabble rabble
i'm very happy right now. i have to say that i like the ways things are going and i hope they stay that way. i'm sorry i'm always so unsure of things, and i'm sorry i have so many problems and a disturbing past. and i'm sorry i've done so much wrong, but i just want to start doing things right. and i hope you can help me do that. i just want to be happy for once. and i want to help make you happy to. i like to talk to you and hear you say you are happier when you talk to me because that makes me feel so good. thank you. and i'm so glad i make your life better. thats the best thing i can possibly do. i miss you and seeing you, and i'm so glad i will see you this weekend. and i'm rambling, but i've been thinking about you tonight and although i got to talk to you for a while, it wasn't nearly long enough. and its not that you even read this, or know about this. i just need to say what i need to say and just get it out there you know. because sometimes its like there's this general consciousness and maybe you'll pick up on it. like they once did this study where they had this group of people do these crossword puzzles every day for like a month and they had a general average of how well they did, and then, they gave them puzzles that had been done a day or two before, puzzles that were in the new york times or something, and the test subjects did dramatically better. its like once the informations out there its just common knowledge or something. i dont know. but the fact of the matter is that thinking about you is good. and talking to you is better. and being with you is the best yet. and i'm excited for this weekend. and now i'm going to sleep because this rambling must suck to read. goodnight. -meow
Friday, Feb. 14, 2003
2:14 a.m.
2:14 a.m.