i've been realizing lately that being happy isn't something you have to work to find, or that it can only be found in certain situations under certain circumstances.

happiness is where ever you want it to be.

despite anything that happens i'm starting to believe that the key to happiness lies within us all.

in any given situation you can choose to be patient, accepting, open, thoughtful, or you can be sad, angry, irritated, offended, etc.

i've come to realize that generally when i'm in one of my off moods it is because i take what has happened and analyze it until it depresses me.

i'm not saying it won't happen again.

i'm not saying i'll be happy from now on.

i'm just saying that i think if anyone was truly open to happiness at every given moment of their life, then they could achieve it.

as for me, i like to be happy, but i don't think i could handle being happy all the time. maybe i' addicted to my mood swings much as they irritate me.

but the thing is i'm going to try to just let more things happen. in my mind i mean. as in not trying to figure out exactly how i feel about everything at any given second.

we'll see.