days pass loverly- sunshine, smiles, being outdoors, guitar, good food, friends, being responsible. And even evenings are often quite fantastic- read: new friends, theatre parties, merriment, karaoke, the velvet teen, talking till wee hours of the morning.

so maybe its just the second i'm alone that negativity sneaks up and backhands me. and suddenly i'm fighting to convince myself that these days are going well.

and i've been having those moments where i feel ugly and dull. appearance, behavoir, words. i'm not begging for praise, i realize its irrational. but a little more of that confidence i was feeling for a while would be nice. and getting past this hump of crunch time in school would be nice.

so sweet summer here i come. hopefully, with you will come relaxation, catch up (on reading, feeling, thinking, esteem), and all things positive.

ps-this has been a fantastic weekend. you are much appreciated.