tornado
today is wednesday. i like to repeatedly make note of the date and time. in that way, i keep myself in line and feel more on top of things. i feel like maybe something i said what timed very badly, or just that ultimately it didn't need to be said at all. i've never been in such a bizarre situation. not quite awkward, not quite comfortable. its just on the verge of something, but i'm at the wrong angle to see the other side.
really though, i should be focusing on things that are more *important*. like the numerous essays and projects i have due in the next few weeks that i spend more time telling other people about their due dates than actually working on. i'm going to change that.
overcast days on the verge of rainy-ness letting the sun peak through occasionally, leave me feeling so needy. what with the weather being so noncomittal, i crave comfort and stability in my day and life. i want cuddling with somone who will be there long term for cuddling when days like this come in the next rainy season. and i just don't know what signals you're sending me.
so this should probably be marked for my 'private' folder, but i think secrecy is something i've been having a little too much of.
xo-kt
2:15 p.m.