insanity is right
so it's 2004. how did it get here? that night still spins in great gusts of stormy winds. i'm not quite sure how i want 2004 to be. last year i screwed up my birthday something awful. sorry you. you should know if i'm referring to you. i still can't believe it was me who acted the way i did and treated you the way i did, and yet you're still one of the greatest and nicest people i know. how did i make such great friends again?
so i'd like this birthday to be one i look back on at least a bit more fondly. and this year. i hope it goes well. 2003 was full of turmoil and changes for me. and while changes are fine, i'd like fewer low points. and thats very possible.
at any rate, my older sister is in town. and that has been a lot of fun. its great to see her after not for so long, and its been better than i thought to hang out with both my sisters. we have all changed and grown a lot in the past year or two, so its completely different to hang out now, and i love it.
we went snowboarding last night, and i'm really undecided as to how i feel about the sport. its so amazingly beautiful up there, or at least it was last night with the snow falling like glitter, and the lights passing in the distance. but i get really anxious about the lift. mainly getting off. i just can't get that. and everytime its not that bad, but everytime i dread it. and i like when i actually get going decently down the slope, but everytime i do, if it lasts too long i get scared. but by the time we were ready to come home, i had improved greatly since last time i went snowboarding, so i think if i put forth the effort at least a couple more times, i could be decent enough to have fun at it and not get quite so sore.
i'm going to go shower, clean my room, and eat some pizza. i'm feeling pleasantly calm and sleepy but happy and not exhausted. i like that.
xo-kt
1:10 p.m.