i spent all day today at work waiting for something that never came. that i shouldn't have been waiting for. i build up my hopes about the entirely wrong things, based an the smallest inklings of an idea, and set myself up for some kind of unbased disappointment. at least i realize its somewhat silly and trivial.

i'm feeling lazy because i haven't been very active the last couple of days. working all day is tiring. ah well tomorrow is a new day.

xokatie

ps-i reminded myself today that i do love that ben, nothing is better than a good dose of him